This has definitely been the worst weekend of this year, and probably the worst in a number of years. I've not only spent about Lm50 in trivialities but had a heated clash with my friends over the shit of black cat.

I've realised that I loath and despise conflict, and upon some introspection I realised that I've been trying to avoid conflict throughout my life, even to my own detriment. This has suited me just fine up till now. Unwillingly I'm trying to keep my feet firm this time, even though my internal turbulence is slowly eating me away. I sincerely hope that this will not have a detrimental effect on the forthcoming holiday.

It would also be nice to solve all issues before leaving however things don't seem any better today than they were yesterday and the day before. The greatest pity in all this is that we were scapegoated to avoid another conflict which would have been solved much easier than this. Shit happens all the time and each time it gets stuck on my boots.